I'm not giving up..

Apologies for yesterdays horrible rant!

As you can probably tell from that I've been having a tough week, but I'm determined to fight through it as always. I've put SO much work in over the last 6 years, and yeah I'm not better yet, but if I give up now I'll be throwing away everyone's (and my) hard work - what's the point in that? It can only get better right? And something Jo said to me yesterday made so much sense, I'm very underweight so my brain can't be functioning properly - hence why my thoughts are so messed up at the moment, my body is struggling, and so is my mind. But theres one thing I can do to change all that right?

I have so much to look forward to, so much to work towards - minding me, college(fingers crossed), I just want to get rid of it all, I want to get better SO SO much, it's bloody hard, but I can do it right? I'm so lucky to have such amazing friends (especially Jo) to keep me on the right track and flick me when im being silly!

Motivation? TICK. Friends & family. TICK. a future? TICK.